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[consulting_detective]

I have never denied anything you lot have been saying, save one point. Yes, I made some stupid choices. I admit to handling my recovery not as well as I could have done. The lowest point of my life was when I relapsed.

Yes, my brothers paid for my representation.
Yes, they paid for many of my living expenses, especially when I came back to London.
And yes, I was more than a little insensitive to a family crisis.

On that last one, I was undoubtedly high when I made those posts. At that time, I was taking anything I could get my hands on. I was young and stupid and didn't know what I was doing. As it is, I was rarely sober long enough to have been able to make any deal with the police. It was only a matter of time before someone noticed what was going on, especially with one of the part-time moderators being with Scotland Yard.

I am not mentally ill. I am not damaged. I am not disabled. And I am NOT a child. Although, if you really want to know, the answer is yes. I'm not repeating the question, because you all know what it was already. It's not something I like to admit and I don't think it should matter either way, and you lot have already damned me regardless of what I have to say.


I'm not asking you for your sympathy or forgiveness. I'm just asking you to shut up.

Comments

[wonko-the-sane.livejournal.com]

Screw you, alright? You can stop with trying to manipulate me with whatever guilt trip you're trying to put on us. You know what you did, so just admit it already.

[consulting_detective]

I was under the impression that I just did precisely that.

I've not name-dropped anybody. I've not dragged anyone through this with me. In fact, this is a matter I've kept largely to myself. Yes, I discuss it openly, but only on my journal, and under the previous conditions.

I frankly don't know what I did to earn this amount of hate from you. As far as I cam make out, I'm just an easy scapegoat for someone who's bitter at having not known their friend quite as well as they thought they did.

[wonko-the-sane.livejournal.com]

Fuck you.

[mscontrarymary.livejournal.com]

Good comeback.

[piplover.livejournal.com]

You don't owe anyone an explanation, especially not the troll. What matters is that you're doing well now. We all make mistakes. It's called being human. And as for the other thing, that's your business as well.

[mazarin221b.livejournal.com]

I hate that you feel like you've been pushed so far to have to write a post like this to start with. It's none of anyone else's business, its over, and you have a nice life with a person that cares about you very much. You don't have to answer to fandom (or anyone else for that matter) for it, ever.

[storm-ford.livejournal.com]

(She means people ;) )

[ningen-demonai.livejournal.com]

Man, I'm sorry you hadta make this post, but hopefully it'll make some people grow the fuck up and look past their prejudices. *Hugs*

[darthhellokitty.livejournal.com]

I had long suspected we had something in common.